Bleeding hearts have always been one of my
favorite flowers. I love the color, the shape and popping
them open... Anyway I love them.
I have had a lot of time to sit and think lately.Because of so much pain I've also done lots of
soul searching. I know this surgery is going to change my life,
but I don't want it to ruin me.
I am a firm believer that, for example,
if you pray for patience, God will give
you a trial to see how well you do. I promise
IT WILL HAPPEN!!!
But I want to embrace this challenge
(now doesn't that just sound like I am asking for something even harder to come?)
I want to be a woman of faith.
A woman who is strong and of good courage.
I have a need to prove myself to others all of the time, but
this is different. I don't want to prove to other people
I'm a survivor, I need to prove it to myself.
I guess we'll see how long this lasts. I'm glad I wrote this down
because the next time I'm in intense pain I may have to look back on
this as a reminder that I'm not giving up :0)
5 comments:
Shelley, just the fact that you're thinking this way shows what a strong person you are! I have been through some trials that I have looked back on and thought, "really? Is that really the best that I could have dealt with that? Am I really that pathetic?" and have been so thoroughly unimpressed with myself. I guess I was blessed (don't know if that's the right word) to have some of the trials come back around, and that time I determined to do better with my attitude and was able to feel so much better about the situation during AND afterward.
Way to see this for what it is - a trial and an earthly experience that seems like eternity, but in the whole scheme of things isn't. I guess I'm trying to also convey that I think you're amazing.
I think you're doing great.
I think you're doing great.
I'm "amening" what Amy and Suzette said, because they said it all...twice.
I'm "amening" what Amy and Suzette said, because they said it all...twice:). Love you. Hope I made you laugh.
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