PARTY TIME!!!!!

So I'm thinking that it about time for a party. I though all day about this and I think it just might work! So we can set a date later but anyone in reach of this post in invited...were talking huge party! I can feel the excitement growing, it's almost infectious!

I've had a few thoughts. The best punch in the world will be served, all sharing the same cup (sorry about that). Our arms will be tied behind our backs so no one can cover a cough or a sneeze. All noses will be wiped on our sleeves, and I'm afraid I have no soap or hot water in the bathroom or any other place in the house. Dinner will be catered by a Divine Restaurant with a menu beyond your wildest imagination. We will only have five paper plates to share among us so we will be scrubbing them and hanging them out to dry for the next person to use. Maybe all of you aren't into this as much as i am.

I guess I should fill you in for the real reason of a party. This was all completely selfish on my part...be forgiving ;D I want everyone to share in my joy. The joy of wheezing, sneezing, headaches and fevers. Fibromyalgia pain, and all the aches from the flu. Lets not forget the earaches and the coughing, humidifiers and inhaler's, Extra Strength Tylenol Multi-Symptom cough and cold medicine, antibiotics and the occasional pain pill when I hurt so bad I can't lift my arms or move my legs.

So I guess there really won't be a party. It was close though, I really felt like you were getting pumped up to come and share laughter and love (at least for the first paragraph) but I just wanted to share germs :o( I'm so tired of feeling sick a lonely...it's only been about 5 weeks since I've been in bed now...no big deal right? But, I did have the best of intentions, I just wanted to be with my friends, and the doctor doesn't count! We all know the adage "if you can't beat 'em join 'em"? Well, I just got it a little mixed up and thought:

If you can't join 'em, beat 'em (just a little)

:o)

The cryer...the hope

Yes, this is what my day has been like.

The uncontrollable crying of a menopausal 31 year old.

Crying over what you might ask, well your guess us as good as mine.

Today it started at about 4 am when I got a at little kiss from my

slightly psychotic cat(it's been a LONG time since I have any action).

I cried my self back to sleep. Then because of the

side effects of the shot I get all emotional and

think of all the good things I could be doing with my life

if I wasn't sick ALL THE TIME (even though I'm not sure

I know what that would be). I started
to talk to my mom about it (because moms make EVERYTHING better).

I told her I felt like such a loser because 99% of my friends

are married, have careers, have a family and are doing

great things with their lives. What am i doing? I can do activity days

2 times a month, if I am active and participating in life one day,

I am in bed the next because of the fibromyalgia and menopause side effects.

AND THAT REALLY SUCKS!!!!!!

I do confess that some day's during crying spells I do feel sorry for myself, but

when that is all over with I am quick (well if the truth be

told I'm kinda slow) but I always come back to remember,

WITH GOD, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!!

(Do you think it is at all possible i am supposed to learn patience,

long suffering, to trust in the Lord or anything else like that).

I know that I am not a stupid person (although I kinda cheated on a standardized

test in 7th grade by just filling in random bubbles and

my parents go a letter that said I belonged in Special Ed)

But I apparently I have something to learn and after 20 years

I still haven't figured it out!!!

Here is another truth filled post

There is a woman I know that is the type of person when you look at her you see more than just a person. You see love, compassion, acceptance for ALL, patience, long suffering and the most Christ like attitude and countenance I have ever seen. Lucky for me she just happens to be one of my very best friends in the entire world. We were college roommates at Ricks and have been bosom buddies ever since. We both went to USU and had the same major which was Family, Consumer and Human Development with and emphasis in Community Service. Amy is a stay at home mom, and has wanted to put her degree to use. She has done that through her amazing new website.

Amy is married to Kyle, who amazing man (the male equivalent of Amy) and they have a beautiful little boy. I don't worship these people at all :0) I just have such a great respect for them. Anyway to the point. Amy's website is full of parenting ideas and tip from all the classes we had to take, her internship, the job she had before she got married, and being a parent herself. So to my follower out there take a look at her website http://www.itsamomderfullife.blogspot.com . It is great and i hope you all check it out!

I got to thinking....

With my big speech on "telling it like it is" I realized that I have been doing it for a while now. So, I don't think there is going to be any new, jump out of your seat revelations on here...well, maybe just a few :D

A what kind of day?

Well, a mental health day of course day. That is what I am taking today. So what does that mean? Multitasking...rest, relaxation, no stress, deep breathing, closing my eyes and pretending I am on a beach in Fiji, nursing a headache so it won't turn into a migraine, and finishing a few tasks for Achievement Day tomorrow. Oh, did I mention that ice cream might come into the mix sometime during this day :o)

Speaking of Achievement Day, I've said it before and I'll say it again, it's the best job in the church!!! I couldn't ask for a better group of girls. I love them all!

One more thing...

I wanted two mention one more thing. There are a few people in my blogging world who I like to think of as "reality writers". They talk about the good, the bad and the ugly, and I love reading their blogs!!! We all know that life isn't always sunshine and roses, there are crap storms now and then, at least for me and two other people I know. It may be more fun to read all about the good things, but I'm all about the whole truth to a certain extent (don't worry family, I'll try not to embarrass you). I found that it is more liberating to write what is on my mind whether it's good or bad. So I hope I never offend anyone with some truthful writing about the dramatic comedy called "MY LIFE".

Love you all :o)

Back to the blog!

What the problem has been.

I've had to take a vacation from blogging. I have been living in my head a little to much lately, and the things in there are scary... As my friends here know I could take at least 2 of the hours of conference to explain my health issues. But, I've been medically put into menopause for 9 months (only 3 shots left :o) )! Just as a reminder for those who may have forgotten I have all the effects of menopause: hot flashes, mood swings, night sweats, etc. Plus I have all the effects of the shot: daily headaches, weight gain (even though i have lost 90 lbs), acne, depression, extreme fatigue; and I can't remember the rest. Being the overachiever that i am I have had all of them.

For the last 2 months I have been in bed unable to do anything 90% of the time. All of my amazing plans for summer were all just wiped away as laid down and and became more depressed each day. I am so tired of people knowing me as the sickly one, or never being able to go out and do things because I am not feeling well. All I want is a normal life. I want so badly to be like all of you....

Well I've had enough of that!

Starting tomorrow I'm going to figure out a plan to start digging myself out of the menopause hole I've been thrust into. It will take a while, probably 3 months to get back to normal (when all the shots are done). But, I had and interesting talk tonight and I think it could be faster. I was talking to a good friend and was given several ideas of what I could do to make things get better faster. In fact the ideas are still coming. Don't you love it when the Lord is you best friend.

I believe it was Elder Worthlin who said the magic words:

"Keep Calm and Carry On"!