The good, the not so good, and the ugly; not in that order

THE NOT SO GOOD

I have so many things that I want to blog about, and so many

pictures to post along with it. But I have had no desire.

I have been trying to figure out what's wrong with myself and i have

decided that IT'S NOT ME, it's the doctors fault and menopause just sucks!

I really don't want to look back and think my blog is such a downer,

but this is my journal and i am writing this for myself, I want to remember what I

went through if I am ever blessed with the chance to have a baby and

if one day I actually feel good, I won't take it for granted :o)

My life on a daily basis begins, well that all depends on when or if I fell asleep the night before. When I wake up I go strait to the reclyner to put a heating pad on my back and an ice pack on my head because every day begins with back pain from a degenerative disc disease, and an extreme headache. Then comes the nausea, sometimes home made popcorn for breakfast, lunch and or dinner is the only thing that settles my stomach.

If my fibromyalgia hasn't had a flare up (which is caused by stress,

but i don't know if multiple health problems causes stress). Usually I have a flare up everyday....hum...stress? Somedays I can't use my arms or hands sometims I can't stand because every tender point in my entire body hurts so much.

The headaches, nausea, night sweats, HOT FLASHES (those are serious business!!!!), mood swings (I don't think they have been bad at all, but others disagree), sleeplessness, acne, depression and weight gain are all side effects of that lovely shot, and by lovely I mean horrid. But the worst part is that i don't think it's working!