The new me...

So does everyone like my new look? Ok, so it doesn't REALLY look like me, but it matches my situation! I went to the doctor today thinking I was going to be scheduling surgery. I have a great doctor and he told me about other options I could choose. We decided to go with a shot, no big deal right? Well, this is a magic shot. Today my doctor put my body into menopause! Yes, I did say menopause (now does the picture make sense). But hey, what's 9 months of hot flashes and mood swings with night sweats to top it off. The doctor and my mom thought it would be a good idea to put me up in a hotel for a week because apparently the first 7 days people don't adjust well to the hormonal changes. But, if any of you see me and I have a look of rage on my face you might want to stay away...that was fair warning to all!! :o)

seeing through rose colored eye's????

Ya know, the eyes you get when you have cried/sobbed all day long. They hurt and burn and are swollen with a lovely tint of red. Yep, that's what I have. It looks like I will be having surgery next week...

Yup that about sums it all up!

Let's be honest...I need to VENT!!!!

The last few weeks have been a real bummer for me. I try to do my best to hide what is really going on but sometimes keeping up that act is too hard. I am facing several health problems, but one I hoped I would never have to deal with again...since I was 15 I mean. To all my fellow women and sufferers of what (for the time being) I deem the "curse," only because for me it last 15-20 days and the cramps are so bad I can't get out of bed. Then I have a 2 week break and then it begins again. It's been REALLY bad for the last 3 years but OUT OF CONTROL for about 6 months. All the cancer tests are negative...HURRAY!!!! I am on some birth control but because of my blood clots I have to take blood thinners at the same time, which STINKS! I am going through several treatments now and if in two weeks I am not doing considerably better it will be an exploratory surgery which could end up in a hysterectomy...which in all honesty I would rather die than have that happen. There is nothing I want more in life than to be a mom. Like my mom. I look at all my friends with their families and there is a definite ache inside my heart. Don't get me wrong I am so happy for them and their beautiful families, I JUST WANT TO BE A MOM!!!! I am only 31 and I feel like my time is running out. Why does LDS society (not the church, just some of the members) make single women feel that their "time is running out" or that I am already "an old maid." But, thanks to all of my friends and cousins (who I consider more than friends, and you know who you are) for always inviting the single gal to the movies even if it is a "date night" or at least I think it might have been. You are all amazing. Thanks for letting me vent! And to those who don't like what I wrote, sorry, but I feel better.

Scriptures 4 kids...

Thanks to my friend Bridgette I found a website called Scriptures 4 Kids. It is a fun site with activities, coloring pages, fhe ideas and lots of other ideas. Take a look, I think you would all love it. I just got my lesson idea for my Achievement day girls for next Friday. I choose the General Authority flash cards. Pictures on the front and facts on the back! I am so excited for that now. I have been struggling for a lesson idea and this is just perfect. This is the first page in the little packet. The website is scriptures4kidz.com

Too funny...

Who could take such a great picture of me and turn it into

such a catastrophe. Just kidding, I gave them permission.

Isn't this hilarious!

At my nieces birthday party Casey was taking

pictures and turning them into

things

like

this.

So, it's looking like life could be worse! :o)

Who knew?